Surviving...
Thats what I am barely doing it correctly,
Pretending,
That's what I am doing it perfectly,
Missing,
Never stop a single second till now,
Suffering,
For not to be able to be with you,
Denying,
Toughest thing to do every day,
Rising,
That the job that I got to do now....
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
A piece of advice~
To all ladies,
He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you
To all guys,
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there
He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you
To all guys,
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Confessions~
Hen xiang nian ni~
Unlike others, you light up my dark life,
Special to me just the way you are,
Heart was clinching tight whenever I m with you,
Unavoidable is the fact that I have fallen for you,
Making me wandering around ,
In my whole life for a right love,
Never thought she was so near to me, yet to be mine only,
Wrong or right, it doesnt matter,
Of your past and also present, I just wanna be your future,
Aint any girl made me feel like this way,
In love with you every single second,
Never once I doubt my love to you,
I will always care and love you.
Unlike others, you light up my dark life,
Special to me just the way you are,
Heart was clinching tight whenever I m with you,
Unavoidable is the fact that I have fallen for you,
Making me wandering around ,
In my whole life for a right love,
Never thought she was so near to me, yet to be mine only,
Wrong or right, it doesnt matter,
Of your past and also present, I just wanna be your future,
Aint any girl made me feel like this way,
In love with you every single second,
Never once I doubt my love to you,
I will always care and love you.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Guess the Identity
Wo ai ni~
one sentence was all I need
only you is all I need
String of hope as I held every day
oh dear, you are the angel of my life
oh dear, can I be the candle for your life
Must I go on without you
important to me just like the air I breathe
nothing else will I ask for but only you
one sentence was all I needonly you is all I need
String of hope as I held every day
oh dear, you are the angel of my life
oh dear, can I be the candle for your life
Must I go on without you
important to me just like the air I breathe
nothing else will I ask for but only you
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Naive
Like a morning dew in the early dawn,
I was as naive as that,
Thought of I could go on without having her by my side,
prove to be wrong,
I was naive..
Thought of I could live every single day without making her mine,
was prove to be wrong,
Again I was naive,
Thought of I could just be friends which is more important than anything,
was proven hard to be applied,
I was naive,
Thought of I wouldnt be jealous of anything regarding of her,
was proven on how hard do I compress it in me..
Again I was so naive,
Thought of I eventually will forget her and move on,
Thought of I eventually will forget her and move on,
was totally so hard to be done,
As each time I tried to force her out,
It was like a pulling out a bunch of roses with their thorns tearing me apart.
I was totally naive...
I was totally naive...
How can I be so naive.....
Being so near, yet her heart seems so far away,
Being so close, yet she refuses to be mine,
Being so close, yet she refuses to be mine,
Being so nice, yet she torturing my mind and soul,
I was so naive but I cant push her away from my life...
Monday, May 30, 2011
Language of L.O.V.E
The language of a wind, is it sound or music of its?
The language of a flower, is it color or the fragrance of it?
The language of the ocean, is it waves or the foam?
The language of love,... is it the eyes or the lips??
To understand the languages of nature...
Men's languages are unnecessary
Just to understand the heart's language..
No words to describe what she meant to me.
Or how special she is, or my love to her,
To put these things into words,
I would have to define them,
To quantify all these things, means
I have to create limits for them,
then there would exists of a beginning and an ending...
there is no definition fitting it, nor any limit, nor any beginning
nor any ending for what she meant to me, how special she is
and my love to her...
Like a star she came into my life,
filled out all the darkness in my space with lights,
Gave me hope by taking away my despairs,
With your smile, you made my life worth living,
with the soft words, u make me fall for u over and over again...
Everyday i sit and pray for that sweetness of u will remain,
and thats why I will always love you as long as you let me...
The language of a flower, is it color or the fragrance of it?
The language of the ocean, is it waves or the foam?
The language of love,... is it the eyes or the lips??
To understand the languages of nature...
Men's languages are unnecessary
Just to understand the heart's language..
No words to describe what she meant to me.
Or how special she is, or my love to her,
To put these things into words,
I would have to define them,
To quantify all these things, means
I have to create limits for them,
then there would exists of a beginning and an ending...
there is no definition fitting it, nor any limit, nor any beginning
nor any ending for what she meant to me, how special she is
and my love to her...
Like a star she came into my life,
filled out all the darkness in my space with lights,
Gave me hope by taking away my despairs,
With your smile, you made my life worth living,
with the soft words, u make me fall for u over and over again...
Everyday i sit and pray for that sweetness of u will remain,
and thats why I will always love you as long as you let me...
Friday, May 27, 2011
Baby
Baby,
Just being close with you, the air you breath run wildly on my skin,
Sharing the same air that you breathes....
Its enough to make the feelings in me, burning, struggling its way out
from my heart and I was so weak to resist it despite we are just being friends,
Yet, a single doubt in my heart... Do you share the same feelings I had for you?
Yet, its hard for me to tell you how much do I love you...
Cause
I know, I am just no one for you..
I know its impossible for me to be with you,
There was just not a single hope,
and I knew no matter how hard do I love you...
You will never love me...
Hope was fading as time passes..
But I barely hold on the hope...
However, the truth cant be hidden forever,
even if love you this much, its just meaningless for you
I build too high hope that you will love me again...
Even though its impossible, and I am not the one for you
its doesnt matter any more to me....
Let me just keep you in my heart till the time comes
Dont know how long will it take for me to erase you from my mind
Dont know when I will be able to love again
Just being close with you, the air you breath run wildly on my skin,
Sharing the same air that you breathes....
Its enough to make the feelings in me, burning, struggling its way out
from my heart and I was so weak to resist it despite we are just being friends,
Yet, a single doubt in my heart... Do you share the same feelings I had for you?
Yet, its hard for me to tell you how much do I love you...
Cause
I know, I am just no one for you..
I know its impossible for me to be with you,
There was just not a single hope,
and I knew no matter how hard do I love you...
You will never love me...
Hope was fading as time passes..
But I barely hold on the hope...
However, the truth cant be hidden forever,
even if love you this much, its just meaningless for you
I build too high hope that you will love me again...
Even though its impossible, and I am not the one for you
its doesnt matter any more to me....
Let me just keep you in my heart till the time comes
Dont know how long will it take for me to erase you from my mind
Dont know when I will be able to love again
Monday, March 14, 2011
Denial and its process
It has been some time,
Way back during month of white blankets,
that was the last time I saw her,
Also was the last time I heard her voice,
Seconds went by,
Minutes went through,
Hours went away,
Days was just counting,
till Months was accumulated,
All the trial was effortless,
On the verge of denying her existence,
On the verge of making her transparent,
I thought I was successful,
Yet one day,
I stubbornly strolled her page,
As I read it,
Tears strolling down as I scrolling down her page,
Ignorance was not a bless,
As proven, I wasnt needed,
As proven, life was a mess if I was in hers,
As proven, I was denied my existence as what I was trying.
As I reached into my pocket,
It only returns an empty hands grasping for your love....
Way back during month of white blankets,
that was the last time I saw her,
Also was the last time I heard her voice,
Seconds went by,
Minutes went through,
Hours went away,
Days was just counting,
till Months was accumulated,
All the trial was effortless,
On the verge of denying her existence,
On the verge of making her transparent,
I thought I was successful,
Yet one day,
I stubbornly strolled her page,
As I read it,
Tears strolling down as I scrolling down her page,
Ignorance was not a bless,
As proven, I wasnt needed,
As proven, life was a mess if I was in hers,
As proven, I was denied my existence as what I was trying.
As I reached into my pocket,
It only returns an empty hands grasping for your love....
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Resolution of 2011
Although its a bit late, but it sure does take time for me to set out my resoulution for 2011.
Resolution
1. Win back Kabaddi Open in UNITEN
2. Lose another 17.4 kg
3. Decrease body fat % down to 20% (currently at 30.3)
4. Increase muscle mass
5. Able to Sprint at 16km/h (currently at 12km/h only)
6. Waist size must down to 32 (Previouslt at 42 and now at 37)
7. Buy a new MAc Book Pro
8. Buy a new Liverpool KIT
9. Skip rice and chips for another 1 year(5/11 2nd annisversary)
10. Visit Mt Kinabalu
11. Visit National Park of Malaysia
12. Visit Broga Hill again
13. reunion with every friends that I have.
14. Learn how to read music notes.
15. Finding oppurtunity for enrolling in Master Courses.
Some of the resolution may not look reasonable to many of you all but I have been trying this for more than 14 months already. I may not have the biggest muscle or fittest body or thickest wallet or fancy car or dressing. But I do have a big size of heart to fill in and achieve all of it. Its better if we learn to walk first then later we run. 1 year may look far away but trust me, it will pass smoothly without you guys knowing it.
Resolution
1. Win back Kabaddi Open in UNITEN
2. Lose another 17.4 kg
3. Decrease body fat % down to 20% (currently at 30.3)
4. Increase muscle mass
5. Able to Sprint at 16km/h (currently at 12km/h only)
6. Waist size must down to 32 (Previouslt at 42 and now at 37)
7. Buy a new MAc Book Pro
8. Buy a new Liverpool KIT
9. Skip rice and chips for another 1 year(5/11 2nd annisversary)
10. Visit Mt Kinabalu
11. Visit National Park of Malaysia
12. Visit Broga Hill again
13. reunion with every friends that I have.
14. Learn how to read music notes.
15. Finding oppurtunity for enrolling in Master Courses.
Some of the resolution may not look reasonable to many of you all but I have been trying this for more than 14 months already. I may not have the biggest muscle or fittest body or thickest wallet or fancy car or dressing. But I do have a big size of heart to fill in and achieve all of it. Its better if we learn to walk first then later we run. 1 year may look far away but trust me, it will pass smoothly without you guys knowing it.
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