Never vacant....

been almost a year, 
I heard ur heart cries, 
I came every night,
but u locked urself up in the room,
I look into ur eyes and saw a tide,
wanna to turn the tide away, 
but u were hurt to let me in ur heart, 

even when ur heart cries for love,
u just act like there is no room,
all i saw was a sign of "dont disturb"
there was no room for me
n u closed the door, turn the key on everything we could be...

Then, u came back, 
giving me hopes, 
giving me chances, 
letting me to be a small part of ur life,
i tot u are not afraid that u will get another cancellation,
i wished to make a permanent reservation n stay in ur heart... 

but i failed to understand,
when i talked to u on phone,
u seems to understand everything,
when we meet up, u gave me the smile to ensure me everything is fine,

n one day u returned saying u dont feel anything
it just wasnt love... 
then what was that smile?
what was that look? 
what was that feeling that u care about me?
why u denying everything happened between us... 

been one year since that day,
n u came back with another man 
another man by ur side,
i pretended nothing,
but it was devastating... 

what could go wrong with me,
u never let me know till today,
what was in ur heart..
but today i knew
there was never a room for me... 

i was just guest in ur life,
a room that being shared by everyone
whom happened to be passing by in ur life...

Despite I could say I moved on,
tears still rolling,
but i braced it with a smile upon my face..